Miss Independence

this pregnancy is showing me that i tend to be an independent person. i REALLY never thought i was that much!

my mom and i were looking through my Baby Book to fill in info for junior's Baby Book and it turns out my first 2 word sentence was "Vicky do!" so, tim has been rubbing that in ever since he heard that!

anyway, i find it hard to ask for help. this giant basketball in my belly (which causes more pain than expected too) really restricts me! and, the thought of the 2 weeks or so of recovery after a c-section has me a bit panicked! that will be asking for LOTS of help!!! i just want to be able to take care of my baby on my own and all the guests who will be visiting!

this made me think about my dependence on God. yikes! i'm thinking i'm not doing too well in that area at the moment. if i can't even ask family here for help, how am i doing at asking my Heavenly Father, who i can't see, for help and being dependent on Him for EVERYTHING! "Vicky do!"

i think this time is going to teach me a lot about that. that and seeing this helpless baby being dependent on us for everything. i'm sure it will be very eye opening. i really want to learn this lesson, but i have a feeling it's going to be a bit painful (in more ways than one!)! i really want to learn though. i need to keep growing, i need to keep learning, i need to let God make me more ready to plant His church. i need to depend on my Heavenly Father for everything!

here's to the potentially bumpy road ahead! let's see how it goes.... :)